Nadir

Ah... to boldly go where SO many kids have gone before. School. Tomorrow will be my eighth day back and I've actually been doing pretty well. My classes are cool and everyone is still here (well almost-- a few, very very important people are gone now :( ).

None of the usual stuff that gets to me in high school had gotten to me until Friday, when I became very fed up with some of the immaturity of trying to be mature by doing nonsophisticated things that I seemingly constantly hear about. So I stupidly, idiotically, horribly, etc. took it out on Andy when it had nothing to do with him at all, so after school I drove him to his friend Matt's house and we talked about it and everything is good. That's partically why I just feel so very right with him. We can talk about anything and even if we dont come to a conclusion at the end of the conversation, I always somehow miracuously feel better about the position, whatever it had happened to be.

Anyways- so after I dropped him off I drove up to Cassidy's so as to wish him a good college trip. We just sat around in his empty room and talked about courses, college, life, etc. and then I drove home. Im planning on going to see him sometime in November, which will be fun. I'm hoping Andy's parents will let him journey with me. Which brings me to my next wonderful topic of discussion.

So I really do love Andy, I do. I say that without any hesitation. But part of what makes a relationship good is everyone getting along. I dont think Andy's parents and I are getting along. I really like both of them for different reasons, but the biggest reason that I like them is that they created Andy. :P But no, really, I do like them. But lately there have just been a few things that have come up that make me think they either dont trust me with him or that they just flat out dont want us to be dating. So that has been my latest emotional/mental complication. The only reason I really care so much about what his parents think of me is that I like Andy so much and I know that he wants them to like me and me to like them... etc. Gah.

Homecoming is in less than a month however, and that should be lots of fun. No, it WILL be fun. I dont know if Andy and I are going to double with anyone or what we're doing beforehand, etc. As far as I know we may 'go' to Homecoming but in fact never even show up at all. ;) For those of you who have never TRULY gone to Prom, you know of what I am speaking. I'm excited about Prom already too. It's going to be at EMP and Im hoping that Andy's parents and my parents will allow us to stay in a hotel overtown overnight. hehe... ahem... i mean... you know, to SLEEP in...

So I guess I should be going. Im really very hungry and school is tomorrow so I'm going to go to bed considerably earlier than I did last night. ;) Talk to you all later!!

Fair Afterglow

Yesterday I went to the Island County Fair of Whidbey Island. :P It is one of the only county fairs left (I think) without commercial shit playing the role of the backbone of the whole event.

I left at around 11:30 and I met my boyfriend Andy there along with my sister, brother, mom and grandpa. We went through everything---- all the art, photography, quilting, flowers, food, music, ducks, chickens, dogs and farm equipment. Which used to be owned by one Ray Gabeline. Hm. Carrying on--- so we did lots and it was fun....Andy and I left around 3 to catch the transit to the stop closest to my house.

When we got to Clinton we walked for about a half a mile to get to my house and then watched Family Guy till everyone else got home. Then Andy, my mom, and I made dinner and Andy made a blackberry pie for us. Then we headed outside with my brother and well... we beat each other up and chased each other around trying to grab our shoes. I suppose there's no intelligent way of stating exactly what we were doing. When my dad got home we had dinner, and then left for the fair again--- we met up with some friends of ours and listened to some more music, and stole some flashlight keychains. :D Andy and I spent the remainder of the night finding out how to clip the lights onto every 'clipable' surface on his outfit. When they were in his pants pocket we passed a guy that was obviously high staring slack-jawed at his pants. Mucho hilarioso. When we left Andy had them hooked onto every belt loop of his bleached jeans. Hahaha... ahhh good memories. So then we went back to my house and we had blackberry pie, and I drove Andy home. At 11:30 I got back home. I got to spend a straight 12 hours with Andy--- therefore it was a very good day. :)

Today however, I am going to a preseason Seahawks game. We're sitting in our luxury box but still. It's FOOTBALL. On the other hand---- there is a computer with internet service. And two plasma tv's. And free food. But I'd still rather spend the day at home watching movies on a rainy day with a few elite people.

It's raining in Washington and that's always good. Better yet- it is raining on Whidbey Island. Specifically at my house too. So I need to go change for the weather---- good deal. I'll write later about how it went. :)

Of Malt and Drive In Virgins

I feel the need to write... although what about I have no idea. I am sitting here in the dark- listening to the sounds of the Olympic reporting from the living room. I used to get depressed when I was like this- but now I'm really not--- I find myself to be almost relaxed.

For the remainder of the night I am planning on watching some more episodes of Family Guy, painting my fingernails, and surfing through the channels. At three in the morning yesterday I managed to catch the music video for Rollover DJ by Jet. I was happy.

Tomorrow it appears that I am going to be driving my sister and boyfriend Andy up to the drive in to see however many movies we can before having to return home.

I have found myself to be addicted to music lately. All types, all the time, any place. Today alone I have burned.. 12 cds I believe. I discovered yesterday that I had a hidden stash of CDr's so I got to burning them. I have plenty of mixes now.... I'm beginning to think in musical lyrics. I'm going over and over songs in my head all day too. Oh just thought of a new song to download---- "Closer" by NIN.

Well I believe that is all for now.

Dye My Eyes & Call Me Pretty

Hi everyone. I have updated my journal in a sort of strange way... I used to have a site at livejournal.com but now I have 'closed' that one down so that I'll only have this one left. So from about... July 31st on back the entries are from my old livejournal site. I just thought that I would let everyone know.

If you are a friend from my livejournal site- welcome. :) {Emily, Trish}

So not a lot has happened since I last posted... Yesterday was my brother's birthday and in the morning I drove to Jamie's {which reminds me--- Emily I WILL give you credit for the cast list-- as it was of genius material :) } anywho- so I drove to Jamie's and then I got into his car and we went into Langley. We bought my brother his studs and some balloons, and then we went over to Joe's Island Music to pick up Jamie's new guitar and a gigbag. VERY nice guitar if I might say so. I especially liked the strings- they were this awesome color. *stares at strings*

So I went overtown with my family later where we... went to Walgreens so I could buy chapstick, and then we went to Traxx, this indoor racing company that kicks ass. It was really awesome. My brother and parents raced the "go-carts" (they're not really gocarts- but that's what I will call them) and I um... well I talked on the phone with my lover. For um...33 minutes it appears to be. We listened to music... and talked about shoes... and plans for the summer. So then I had to go so I drove my brother up to the Old Spaghetti Factory and I stood outside and took pictures for a while until my Grandpa and mom arrived, and then we had dinner. yay.

So today is my MOM'S birthday- and we havent done anything yet---- they're cooking eggs and working on the network it appears. Im trying to figure out the best way to give her her present. Hm. If I get the time Im going to make her a mix cd too. Tomorrow I think I am spending the day with either my family or Jamie- and then later on in the day my sister and Andy and I are going to drive up to the drive in and watch a few movies. I dont think we'll be able to stay for the last one but I hope so--- It's White Chicks and I thought it looked really funny. :P But its at the top end of the island so it would make for a VERY late (or early in the morning) drive home. It probably wouldnt be over until 2 or so. I dunno. Anywho--- Ok well I'm off to jump into the shower... ahhhh.

I'll update later.

crossed legs and a perching hand

Everytime I sit down to write a blog I have a moment where I wonder deeply about what the heck I should write about.

"If you're sleeping are you dreamin, if you're dreamin, are you dreaming of me??"

Hmmm I have been so very busy lately. I dont even know if this is worth posting since I have to go in a few minutes... lets see... Tomorrow is my brother's birthday- and then the day after tomorrow is my mom's. Hm. To add to it, my grandpa is coming tomorrow. Im giving up my bedroom for a week and a half so tonight will be my last night of privacy. :( well ... I'll still get 'privacy' it will just be in the living room on the air mattress. yay. Zippity do dah.

Toodles for now. I'll write later

.dont worry its just your mind; you can stop it any time.

Babysitting once again. :) It seems to be going pretty well though. They're tired from last night's Mariner's game.

So I got home last night from work, and got ready to leave for shopping with mi madre. I had a pair of pants that I had to return to Victoria's Secret but they wont take them back at the stores that are in the mall so the 'kind lady at the counter' told me that I will have to pay (more spendage!! yay!!) to ship them back. I thought about telling her where SHE could ship have them shipped to, but only because I've already paid close to $60.00 for these damn pants.

.So then we left. I went into American Eagle and saw all of the amazingly cute sweatshirts... but I was reminded of Marie's words about how sweatshirts dont look flattering on anyone so I didnt buy one... but not because I didnt think that I wouldnt look flattering in it. I buy sweatshirts cause they're more comfortable than anything else. :D But I already have a few... and... they were $50.00.

So then we go through the Bon in search of a bathroom for my mom when I found a clearance rack. YAY for clearance racks!!! I didnt find anything that I really wanted but it was still worth a look. So then we left.

We end up at Old Navy and I went crazy. I got... three shirts, a jean skirt, and a pair of pants. Hey I know girls out there are going "thats not even CLOSE to how I go crazy in a store" but see... I hate shopping to begin with. AND I NEVER buy skirts. Ever. And I hate shopping for pants... well I just hate shopping in general. So in all I got all those plus a courderoy coat at Costco and I spent under $100. :D Not quite as good as thrift shopping, but still I got a LOT of stuff for under a hundred. :D

Now I get to do the fun shopping. hehe.. shoe shopping!! I dont know how well a jean skirt and tshirt would go with bright pink conversish shoes... but I'll check it out. haha.

Today I get off from work an hour early... they have a dentist appointment, and then I'm going to the thrift store, the gas station, the bank, and the photo shop-- Knox. Spending more money!! yay!! BLEH. At least I get paid at the beginning of next week. Im going to do something with Cassidy tomorrow-- we still dont know what, and then on Friday my six months are up!! yay!!! Sorry I probably wrote about that yesterday and perhaps the day before, but it's exciting. To me. And to Andy probably- since it means we can take longer drives. :D

So- music. I know that some of you out there are really into music. DUH. If you're not then you're an insane (possibly republican) person. Ok so here's some good music to download. If you do not have the means to download then contact me through msn and I'll send it your way. Ok here's a list:

-- The Killers-- On Top, Smile Like You Mean It, Mr. Brightside, Andy You're a Star (maybe I just like this one because of the title--- I dont know if I'd like it so much if it was "Fred You're A Star" or something like that. Anyways-- moving on) a few others of which I cannot currently remember.
-- Elefant-- Good band- no idea where they are from or any info at all but I like them. They played at the Neubus too but I missed it. Ok: Makeup, Tonight We'll Dance, and Misfit. Misfit is my favorite but Makeup is rather good also.
-- Polyphonic Spree-- I havent listened to these guys to know too many of their songs, but I like "Light and Day" and someone told me that its on the soundtrack for "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" but I cannot verify that as I have yet to see the movie.
-- Modest Mouse, Postal Service & Death Cab For Cutie-- They are all in the same genre according to Rollingstone.com, but Postal Service and Death Cab for Cutie actually both have the same singer. Interesting eh? Anywho-- They're all really really good bands and so any song of theirs you download is going to be good. For Modest Mouse I would recommend: Float On, Ocean Breathes Salty, and well.. I would just recommend every single song on "Good News For People Who Love Bad News" and "Baron von Bullshit Rides Again". The latter is one that you can only BUY off of modestmousebootlegs.com but it is a VERY good cd. I love it.

.Ok thats it for now about music.

George W. Bush is gracing us with his presence in Medina. For those of you who do not know what Medina is, or WHERE it is, all I should have to say is this: Bill Gates Lives There. You may think 'Medina is hell then?' but what you SHOULD gather from that piece of info is that it is in Seattle. The portion of Seattle that all the rich foggies live. This is a community that refused to pay taxes for the local libraries or police force- because they have their own. HMMM. I think this is funny though because see... Melinda Gates wanted to sign up her two children for library cards at the Bellevue Library (I have spoken to the librarian she spoke with also which I think is hilarious) but they REFUSED to give her library cards, because Medina residents do not pay taxes towards King County Library System. So she was refused. There is a sign on the wall listing the "Gates Foundation- Bill and Melinda Gates" as a major donator to the Bellevue Library. But they still didnt get their cards. Because their community doesnt pay taxes.

These people are damn rich and they wouldnt let their taxes go towards the libraries. Payback's a bitch aint it Melinda??

Anywho-- sorry for this being so long to all of you out there. Ok so George W. Bush is gracing us with this presence in Medina. Im taking my eggs. Jamie and Andy have heard of this story--- ahem "plan"-- of mine. I'm going to take raw eggs to a George W. Bush speech, and just chuck it at him in the middle of it. I figure, I've only got a few more months in which to do it because I'm not 18 yet so... the law may treat me nicer if I get caught.... my parents support this also by the way. I think my mom thinks that I'm joking but now that he's in Medina--- how could I pass up the opportunity!?!?

There's a new name up there---
-Jaime-- my friend who shares my name, who I chat with about sex, books movies and music. We kind of just hang out whenever. He's in Whistler right now too. I know that Jamie deserves a much better paragraph than this about his character- but I have confidence that his character will come through in my stories about our adventures. Jamie-- when you get back we're doing the vodka/seagull thing ok? No but's.

So I guess that has brought me to the end of my rant for this morning. So far only have of my charge has awoken. He wants to go work on 'his road' by the 'woods' aka play boat. Talk to you all later!!

Favorite quote from yesterday:
[Andy] Thats what I love about you.
[Jaime] That I'm a smartass?
[Andy] It's 109173841098237% better than being a dumbass.

Yay for Andy and Jaime conversations. LoL. Bleh I need to seeeeee Andy. :( I didnt even get to talk to him last night... damn. Anyways--- kid got out skateboard. Must be off.

.of poopy pants and chicken heads.

Ahh... babysitting. There's nothing like it hm? For anyone who has ever babysat for two young boys for an extensive amount of time you know how tiring it is. However, this has become my summer employment and I really do like it... I do... but sometimes you kind of just want to sit the kids in their own separate rooms to keep as much possible space between them as possible, and then crank your headphones to the tune of the Killers or something.

Lucky enough for me, tonight they're going to the Mariner's game with their parental units and so their mom left me with instructions to just basically let them veg out. I dont know if there is a harder task than entertaining a 6 and 9 year old together. Nothing holds their attention span beyond 15 minutes or so. If I'm lucky. Gossshh..

Ok last night I saw King Arthur. (I know that technically I'm supposed to put that title in italics since its a movie but I dont feel like it so just deal.) Personally I thought that it was a movie that I could only watch once and that would be the end of it. I wanted to go home halfway through! Well actually I just wanted to go somewhere else with Andy my bf because we hadnt gotten to see each other hardly and there we were sitting in a movie theater.

It really was kind of a boring movie though. My mom kept telling me on the car ride home how hot the guy that plays Arthur is, but I think that he looked a lot like Mel Gibson. Cool eyes, but I dont really see myself going for the warrior 'I'm willing to sacrifice my life' kind of guy. Thats probably why I will never date anyone in the US armed forces. Call me a horrible person but that's just what I think.

So we get to the movie and we go with my family (which I can tell Andy isnt too hot with to begin with) and then Marie and Emily find some spots to sit right in front of us. Which actually I didnt mind in the least. Andy kept throwing popcorn at them though. Ooops~!~ Time for a character list~!!!

Cast List-- (in order of their appearance thus far)

- Andy-- my boyfriend. Red head, tall, funny smart guy who shares my love for thrift store shopping. Well, and other loves of mine also, but that's one of the many. We've been dating just short of a month so far but it sure doesnt feel like its been that long. Time flies when you're having fun ;) I'll have plenty to blog about Andy I'm sure.

- Emily-- another red headed friend of mine. Im outnumbered right now!! AHHH. Her 18th birthday is today- I wish her a good one. She's leaving for her freshman year at Willamette College in Salem Oregon really soon and that makes many of us on the island sad. :( But I will make sure to visit her at least a few times. :) She is very politically minded and pissed about Bush like we all should be, and she just returned from Finland which really seems to me like her true home. She's already planning her return during her winter break from Willamette.

- Marie-- yay now I'm not outnumbered-- Marie is not a fiery redhead but a very very very blonde, blonde. But not in any permanent mental ways that I am yet aware of. She's a great friend and is much fun to talk to about shopping, shoes, movies, politics and other things.

Ok so that's who has appeared in my 'saga' so far.

In the background the music of Fantasia cycles... Sometimes you wonder about little kids and how music really affects their 'growth.' In band they've always told us that it promotes more complex brain growth and development but perhaps that was so they could keep us (well more like have our parents keep us) in the class. There are a lot of other kids that I know that are amazingly smart that do not know how to play any instrument at all.

Which has reminded me that Andy plays the guitar. *sighs* hehe. :)

It's amazing how fast my weeks fill up with an 'agenda.' Today and tomorrow I babysit until 4 and then on Thursday I think I am going to hang out with my friend Cassidy (oops another one to add to the list... hold on) and then on Friday I am 'escorting' my mom up to Oak Harbor so that when she turns in her car to be worked on at the dealer's, she has a car to be 'transported' around in. Which is kind of good for me anyways since last time I was transporting them all around we went to Wallmart and I bought the wrong make up. Bleh!~ So that's probably what I'm going to have to do this time also.

Hm... maybe Andy could go with us.. I dont know if he'd like to be subjected to that kind of torture though. -- He'd have to deal with my family all day-- and part of that day may be spent at an Outlet Mall. Which are my favorite type, but my mom seems to be convinced that I wont EVER pick out shirts or pants with my boyfriend within a 10 mile radius or something. The logic behind that... I'm not sure of.

Saturday is my day so far that I am trying with all my might to keep open so that I may hang out with Andy... and Sunday I am going to be the friend Scott's 'date' to his Fireman Picnic or something. He's another one for the list...

Updated Cast List:

- Cassidy-- a friend of mine who is also leaving for college this year--- only he's attending Evergreen State College. He's rather a new friend of mine-- and I havent seen him in about a month because we've both been so busy... he's got a cool Volvo that I love, and he's a cool guy that has tons of interests. I think that's one of the things that amazes me about him-- the amount of interests he HAS. Everything from swords to the prices of 'vagina dolls' on the internet (if anyone is wondering they go for about $300-$400 each) It's astounding.

- Scott-- He will be a fellow senior whom I have known since 8th grade. He grew up on the east coast and I truly believe that he probably does belong there permanently. He gets "east coast cravings." Which I cannot understand as I have never been there in my life. He plays the trumpet and loves Jazz... he's got tons of interests too like languages, religions, and Guinness.

Well I think thats about all I should write for now--- see what happens when I'm bored? Damn typing skills keep me from thinking about things too much before I type them. :P Anyways-- hope you all are having a wonderful day. :)

August 9th

Hello everyone---

Soooo how is everyone eh? Im Bored. Yes with a capital "B" too... I'm waiting for Andy to wake up and either call or sign online because I want to go visit Emily. She leaves for Willamette really soon too which makes me very sad. Bleh.

On to other news...so for those of you who would like a new overview of my life and friends and such... *I know that I have already posted this on my livejournal site for those of you who have seen that, but I am starting over* Ok so my family---

My Mom (Karri-- Never call her Mrs. Barker)--- Irish, trains doctors for practice software, is into pottery and scrapbooking.

My Dad (Pat-- Never call him Mr. Barker) --- Native American-- I look the most like him - {Im the only one that got his dark hair} HVAC technician, loves restoring cars and other productive things.

My Sister (Kaeli)--- Blonde haired, glasses, eighth grade, um... is very "girly" unlike me... In some ways we are polar opposites. But when I go through my short spaz attacks of "lets do each other's hair or paint our nails" she's there.

My Brother (Lucas)--- Short, 9, almost 10 years old... knows more about cars, engines, and gears than I ever wish to know myself... good little kid.

So thats my family basically. Save for my schizophrenic grandmother. I dont think she's actually been diagnosed with it but I'm convinced that's it. And my dad has a huge family--- he's the youngest of 8- it took me until last year to finally get all of my aunts' names straight. Ok moving on.

I dont feel like making a list of my friends right now particularly but maybe at some other point in the not-too-distant future. Ok Im searching through my mind for something to blog on about, because if I cannot think of anything to write about then I'm sure that this was a waste of an entry you see?

Phones. I hate how sometimes when you call a person's house their answering machine picks up immediately. And I dont know about you but I need time to prepare in my mind what exactly I'm going to leave as proof that I called their house. So if the answering machine picks up on the first ring I end up leaving a message that's usually somewhat like this:

"hi.... um... this is jaime and I was calling for Bob... NO! I mean Fred... and I was just calling to see um... what you're up to?? so could you uh... give me a call?? thanks"

And then once I hang up I realize that that person doesnt have my number and since I didnt even leave him one to call me back at, and so I left proof on their machine that I am a blabbering idiot. Lovely.

So if any of you get a message on your answering machine that is from me that seems to be quite a bit like the one above, know that it is not MY fault but your answering machine's fault. Fucking electronics.

No, I like the people's answering machines that take like TEN rings to get to the message. Like Andy's. I just call... and wait... and wait... and wait... and ten rings later or so I get to leave a well thought-out message on his machine. Well, sometimes. Not always. But at least I can be sure that he has my number.

Thats all I want to say about answering machines for now.

Hm... something to type about that I enjoy. Nah Im not in the mood. Later--- with my extended friends list I will write about something I like. For now, this is all.


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